>>54426
yeah don't worry I get it. I'm only slightly more numb to the death of pets at this point because I've lost a few, all of which I loved dearly. I was very very upset with the first two deaths though. Besides the first cat, I had a huge collie mix for all of my childhood, in his later years he developed really bad arthritis and probably some kind of dementia (he was often confused and had weird mood swings). We had to call the vet to put him down. He made it to 12 which is rare for an absolute unit of a dog like him. He must have been well over 40 kgs, and my grandma's diet for him didn't help with his size. He had plenty of muscle though because there was a big yard for him to run around in. He was a gentle giant and he enjoyed the life he deserved. Like I said, I'm sure your cat did too. That's what matters the most