>>11289
>>11300
as for you, you've idelized her to the point of transforming her into a savior. from what you say it's clear that you believe that if a girl was ever to acknowledge you, all of your problems would magically disappear. that's self-deception, though, because the way you feel now depends mostly on how you see yourself, not on how others perceive you. I can assure you that if a girl fell in love with you tomorrow you'd start to think that you don't deserve it, or you'd start to question the sincerity of her feelings, and you would end up screwing it all up because of your insecurity. in order to maintain a healthy relationship you need to work on yourself first, and in order to do that you need an external point of view that could help you to get rid of those simplistic beliefs whose only purpose is keeping you stuck in you neurosis.