So basically I was fapping so much to marky I stopped going to work.
And just kept fapping.
I got another job after this, but then just quit it, and for a year just fapped like crazy to marky and a whole bunch of porn.

Easily fapped hundreds of times to her. Fucking probably a thousand. Like daily. For years.

Amidst this I basically chose Sam over my own dad, literally like turned my dad away while doing something for sam (fatherless tho so who cares).

I'm fucked.