>>3912 >divorced parents >live with single mother in absolute squalor (she's a hoarder) >mom openly admits she originally intended to abort me >sexually molested in kindergarten >bullied by my peers and teachers all my life due to weak, fragile and naive personality >only ever had a few friends, but they all stopped talking to me >always quiet in any social situation >never had a gf in my life (girls used to be interested in me but I repelled them with autistic behavior) >only ever had sex once with a prostitute, felt nothing >barely made it through high school >failed university >never had a job (except 1 year of civil service) >no money >no useful skills and incapable of studying >most of my life has been spent in front of a computer or fantasizing about imaginary scenarios >constantly alternating between apathy and despair
