there’s a common phenomenon for upper middle class teens, particularly girls, who get tired of the monotony of a generally secure life and they have their period of mania. sex, drugs, lying, cheating, stealing, self harm, etc. borderline type shit
honestly, i don’t blame them. life is unbearably boring sometimes. but they go into this thinking that the attention from males is positive. and then they get verbally abused, sexually assaulted, doxxed, whatever. a lot of the worse orbiters are really insidious and know how to manipulate people and the thing is, ciara was easy to manipulate because she was, at the time, more like an effigy and less like a person, and that perception still follows her
why won’t she ever confirm she’s alive? well, look at this thread. look at the past 8 threads. you have a few dozen people collecting her pictures like trading cards and sending them around. you have people selling her illegal nudes on snapchat. people have doxxed her mom, her sister, harassed her family, her school, her parents place of employment.
coming back wouldn’t end this. she knows she’s not convincing anyone. her family knows this too. but helen and siobhan have already had to deal with the most putrid, repugnant interactions and messages you could think of so at this point willful ignorance is ideal
she was, indeed, special. she was, objectively, the most attractive e-girl in that circle. whatever you want to group it as, idc. sheep village , r9k, who cares. there was something that set her apart but that same uniqueness got her in trouble because she exploded in popularity all at once and so her eventual implosion was inevitable. she realized these people weren’t giving her attention because they liked her.
men were giving her attention because they were attracted to minors, because they weee reminded of their cute greasy weeb girl crushes from way back because they peaked in highschool and had this fabricated identity already formed and tried to box her into it.
at the end of the day, watching her just exist, interact, and be something others wanted to be was a way to vicariously experience the romanticized life of a troubled teenage girl. but it also ended up unearthing the troubling dichotomy of interactions online: while some enjoyed her, many wanted to destroy her.
