now i know why cewl is still on an anonymous imageboard. she spent too much time in the incel board and it became a part of her identity that she is a loser. she, as every autists do, have a strong sense of morality and hates people who lies and manipulates. that in turn made her feel proud that she is an irl true loser compared to the fake ones on tiktok. this led to the self-destructing behavior like posting nudes online, to feel proud that she is the real one, to prove that she is not fake like other normie girls. this twisted sense of morality is bad because it leads one to a situation where you have to harm yourself to feel proud. im glad she now has a skin care routine and does nails. wagmi