>>69056
>Sorry Idk how to explain this better I have a poor vocabulary so Its hard to put my imagination onto words, I apologize for this
Don't apologize, sunshine, I get the gist of what you're saying. Your mind has been conditioned by the views of all the people around you. If everyone around you is telling you you're ugly, it must be so. You irritated me last year with that shit but I'm glad you explained this a bit more. To be fair, I was only half invested in that R9K thread so you could have explained it there as well.
Obviously, a bunch of desperate lonely boys gassing you up isn't going to move the notch in the other direction. You can't trust that what they are saying is what they think you want to hear to get closer to you.
I partly feel the same way, because a lot of kids in mid-middle onward would tell me I'm ugly and laugh about it or treat me like trash and lie about it. I couldn't defend myself so I conceded. Now that I lift weights on the regular and bike almost regularly, I'm more confident, but my face could use some work. lol