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I've been thinking about girls I knew irl that could have fallen into egirldom, and the most likely one I had a chance to date.
Mental illness, outcasted by our peers, but man I think I actually loved her.
She wasn't necessarily hot but super developed. Fat cow tits that would cause a crease in the middle of her button shirt, allowing me to see a few inches of her.
And she was so curvy, as well. When I had the chance to walk up the stairs her short skirts could never conceal what she had under, especially when it was summer and she wouldn't wear tights.
We had a few classes together and spoke often. I could've dated her if not for the insane stigma around her.
I think girls made up rumours about her a lot because they were jealous of her, even though she wasn't the prettiest girl.
I imagine them staring at her in the changing rooms and being jealous of voluptuous body, because she kept to herself and never really had drama with people, there wasn't a reason to dislike her.
Every time I mentioned her to my friends I would get made fun of for liking her at all, and I remember a few passing comments random people would make about her even when she wasn't brought up by anyone.
The last few years of school her neuroticism got worse, she would miss school often and when classes got stressful for her (like people making too much noise) she would straight up leave. I think she had stuff going on at home, just like me.
I sympathised with her but that was never something we shared with each other properly.
I follow her on insta (on an alt because I'm too much of a reject now to have a main acc) and over the past 4-5 years I think her life improved significantly, and mine just languished, now I'm likely khhv forever.
I'm happy for her but I still think about what could've been if I had just gone for her instead of succumbing to the peer pressure of every retarded subhuman who went to my school.