Just so you know, I want to fuck Bonbi. I would do it right now if I could. I want to fuck her gently at first, "lovemaking" I guess, then once she's accustomed to that, I want to use her and pound her out like a fucking common whore. I want her drenched in sweat on sticky bed sheets with a big wet spot under her cute little ass. Makeup smeared, mascara running down her cheeks. Moaning, whimpering, screaming, muffled by our deep, passionate kisses. Barely able to speak while I fuck her. I want to deprave and pervert her. I want to do things with her that she would outwardly seem disgusted by or scared of, but that also pique her interest even though she's too shy and scared to admit it at first. I want to get her hooked on weird kinks and practices. I want to permanently and irreversibly alter her sexual desires. I want to absolutely fucking ruin her. I want to do all of this within the bounds of a loving, monogamous marriage with her.

I know it won't happen. It's ok. I hope she ends up content and fulfilled with a good man and has a few good kids with him, and they die painlessly in their sleep together when they're old and grey. But you cannot stop me from wanting what I want, or from saying I want it. You can only seethe.