>>60345
lol

>>60352
Maybe. I think even if "the play" (which is just how I'm calling my self/ego/identity including its past and its most likely future) popped up in my mind when I was feeling "normal" (not in the sense of a normal person but more so of existing in a state of normalcy, balance, stillness), I wouldn't see it in such a negative light. Could be dopamine release prompted by God knows what, or some other neurological thing. Those little sparks are great, but I have no idea where they come from. Certainly not from "taking a walk" or "hittin the gym" or "drinking more water". I'm very obviously wired different from most people (AND JUST BECAUSE I EMPHASIZE THAT DOESN'T MEAN IT'S NOT TRUE THAT'S A FALLACY)