Sunflower 12/14/2021 (Tue) 17:48:08 Id: ee3a5a No.300 del
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>I don't even care anymore, not about vampires or remilia or occiltism in general. I might as well become mundane again (maybe I never stopped being it to begin with). Taking the vaccine and getting a job, playing videogames until I die, maintaing my astral place and body from time to time and see what happens in the end. Maybe that's what life should be for me.
I take it back. Something has happened to me today (and especially to my astral body as I saw it), and now I feel ashamed of even thinking like the above. But maybe in certain situations you have to take one step back in order to be able to take two steps forward. I have no idea if there is even a point in writing about it here anymore so I won't describe it, but after the event I feel new confidence and exitement. It's just like back in the day when I started out fresh with the vamprism thing. I don't know if it happened by itself or if it's because I mustered the strength to face reality and go inside myself and really figure things out and come to a conclusion which triggered it.
Just tought I should come back and post it here. Giving up and becoming a mundane was never a possibility.