Sunflower 12/15/2021 (Wed) 18:09:43 Id: a0fb48 No.315 del
>>313
I remember that place.
>>311
Well, I realized I was using magic as a form of escapism and that I never really wanted to do the work. I lost interest in material manifestation pretty quickly and instead chased the weirdness until I couldn't find it anymore.
I'm still interested in lucid dreaming and astral projection. I tell myself it's because I want to be prepared for death, but in actuality is that I want to hide from the boredom and mundaneness of life.
I've been recently told it is my fate to learn to live in the coming years, and nothing terrifies me more. I want nothing to do with life, really.