Sunflower 12/15/2021 (Wed) 21:43:44 Id: 64452a No.320 del
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>>317
>tangible results
>What are those for?
They should be at least tangible for yourself. I have no intention to show off, but I want to be immortal and transcend the physical limitations. Sooner or later you will have tangible results if you achieve anything.

I know the feeling of terror and not wanting to do with this life all too well. That's where you need to produce results, in order to survive and to get out of here.
I went into my nature place again for the first time in a while and looked at the dying world and my honest feelings, and I realized I can never go back and be a mundane again. It is literally impossible to hate myself so much as to give up and bow my head and be part of them, be one of them. I realized that I don't want to have anything to do with them and that I will not take the vaccine or will ever be part of their society. Not only is it impossible to hate myself so much to be able to become part of the circus freaks and mingle with the creepshow, but I also realized how much I actually love myself and the path I have been on. The love for myself and for freedom compels me to attain the impossible and make the leap. I was happy about myself at that time and I imagined my astral body (in a tiny version) standing in the palm of my hand. It was then that the actual event that happened to me started and took place. I think it change me for real, even now I feel the energy and I feel something is different with me. I feel "it" again. Even if I die the final death because of my stubborness, it's alright. Because for the first time in a long while I feel good and at peace. At least I had myself. I have given up on giving up. Now all I have to do is to push until the very end, whatever it might be. And if I think the event means what it made me feel it means then it might just so happen that I may complete my transformation and evade death forever. Who knows...