I need more insight/information about karma dirty qi
As I was trying to connect dots about my "past lives" in one of them I was lost in some protective darkness like how the dark of the forest shields you from some predators and in some another I was some dominant entity emitting large amount of darkness. As I was trying to remember every detail I had about those lives I remembered that I noticed that darkness above my shoulders once before when I was in church (I am not a church goer but I had to pay my respects). I was in the front row and it usually irks me when people sit behind me because I can sorta feel when they look at me but I couldn't because that protective darkness was at my shoulders. After remembering this I realized I still have this and it's still big enough to cover my whole back.
I noticed that it doesn't feel hostile or painful and I can mold it, I turned into a cape and noticed making it into a bigger thing doesn't necessarily feel good then tried to make the inside red so it hides me from outside strengthens me in the inside and >pic related came over It had one eye only and a long shadowy hair and tried to turn into other sharp eyed human women with long black hair but I usually prefer the original form of the entities so she stayed in that. First I closed my eyes to "see" her better and when I did that she started to walk away and first I tried to go after her but then got bored of that and opened my eyes to regain my focus.She came back instantly with a smug face so I kept my eyes open and continued with an open eye. As I looked into her big eye I was thinking maybe syncing up with her big eye would help my third eye development so I did lot of energy movements with my eye as she did with hers toward mine.Usually this mush mingling with entities does the trick and by this time proper telepathy establishes and I can hear what they say but for some reason the images improved but couldn't hear a thing. I remembered that the original thing I tried to do was figuring out what to do with that shadow of mine so I turned it into tentacle like things and joined them with hers and as she joined hers with mine it really felt good for my spine so I tickled her "spine" too and kept doing silly things which felt good/interesting but I still didn't know what even she wants anyway. So I jokingly said "Do you want to take away my eyes?"
