Sunflower 01/18/2022 (Tue) 19:35:13 Id: 972fd5 No.528 del
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>But you can also have positive relations with them

Yeah So what happened here.
First I got a vision of starry night on a mountain in a forest in a shrine like place while my head was in the lap of an "anime" girl.
Well my reaction was so nice/tranquil... I WOULD LITERALLY USE THIS FEELING ON SOMEONE IF I WANTED TO GIVE HIM A FEELINGS OF RESPITE JUST BEFORE I FUCK HIM OVER COMPLETELY. Saying this to the girl she got up stepped away from me and her face literally "melted" into something similar like the dude in the movie Scream (no I didn't see that movie so far) then looked at me several meters afar. So as a real smart reasonable person that I was. I made my face also melt into that and looked at her. After this whole thing only immature children do she left. Then seen some other 2 spooky things because my paranoia was top notch retarded and I molded myself into that spookiness reacted to their expression with something similar made myself look a little bigger and went on my way.

So yeah
I realized after a while the action she took was only because I once again acted like the dumbest rudest fuck because of my paranoia.
Whatever it helped. The answer was not in that realm. It felt nice tho (except the part where karma was literally trying to turn my body back to the wretchest thing ever.)


Whatever time to clean up the remainders and master myself further.

Also yeah now that I have my own and still incomplete understanding I literally cannot look at your reading. It just confuses things. Thanks for not doing it earlier.
I have to switch back to the analytic way of thinking (when looking at it) and not the instant relate and use thinking because this "doer" thinking was what made me "speedrun" this thing after this much stagnation.

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