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>I looked at what I had created at that time and found it to match Rumia.

I didn't want to post this earlier because I have no idea what to make of it yet and my body is still reconstructing itself and while I feel great as I do my daily life. It starts to collapse when I am trying to "deep dive" into my connected memories and I didn't want to talk about my incomplete mysteries yet. But now that Rumia is mentioned it might be connected...

When I was the pope and everyone around me got killed. I started to walk down into the darkness of the forest. As I was walking down I passed multiple gates. They were like the shinto gates but more dark more "pagan". They didn't feel hostile but I didn't see nothing else but the gates in the darkness. I was thinking that "maybe I am walking towards hell" but couldn't stop myself going further. Then I said "this is not the way I came from" and turned around then I got lost in the abyss. After something it felt like hours of wandering I woke up. This was one of the lives where I felt that "protective darkness" that I talked about. I thought this dream might be either a past life or a metaphor about how I am unable to walk a path continuously.

Years ago I had 2 "end times" dreams which felt like an alternate timeline. In one I died to a swarm of organ harvesting robots but I was a VIP mundane there because as civilians died left to right helicopters and soldiers tried to save me but they failed. I tried to use the dead bodies of the soldiers so the robots don't detect me but it didn't work. I thought this might be my fears if I walk further on the materialistic/career path that everyone around me wants me to take.

The other was a clusterfuck. It was the endtimes. As I was in that world it was obvious. People were crying hopelessly, earthquakes and tremors and a feeling of complete defeatism from everything around me. I said I can change this. In that alternate world I had all my powers unlocked. I was unstoppable.As time went by I was through many battles and saved people who flocked towards me with renewed hope. Managing large amount people is something I find as a hassle so I let others handle the "leadership" because I had more important things to do.