>>804
oh that test. I have seen it several times in the last year in personality test threads but didn't bother to go through it yet I am not as obsessed with personality tests as I was in my teens anymore

Also since that post I figured out the problem. I always wrongly assumed that I have some "defiant" "Lilith" feminine energy but couldn't place it anywhere. (I am not just trying to sound special, I have a reason for this assumption. This "Lilith" type thinking ruined some people in my family but it's tldr and entirely unimportant) Like a year ago I went ahead and tried to connect to sg with that name but all I got was a woman with fiery eyes staring into the abyss so I left that there because I couldn't get more from it.

But now that I know that the thing I look for is this "stability" feel aka inner peace I could connect to something inside me with a similar feel. I got an image of a meditating woman in white in a tropical beach gazebo. This problem is solved. I just assume her form and I have it.
Next priority is understanding what are tantric practices exactly (I am starting to have ideas now that I feel the effects of karma but I need to read up some theories because I only have observations and theories based upon them. I will write about it tomorrow) and maybe getting a genie.

I might do the test tomorrow after a sleep. I learned something about tests. Never do them when tired. You may misunderstand the questions. Yes I was in some forums where you could only get in if you proved yourself to be worthy with your superior personality type at registration


>>812
>is it too late at this point?
Never too late. But don't forget the more you wait the harder it gets. So start doing something that would reignite your path. If you keep doing something you will find something. Walk the path and it reveals itself. You just have to walk it