>>8939
I tried developing alcoholism to experience some kind of obsessive pull like that, but it was very difficult, because drinking anything with alcohol in it very boring to me. Beer gives me a headache, red wine just makes time move slower and I want to stop, etc. When I eventually got into it, it was only as a way to releave physical pain, that made it possible to create some kind of addiction. But it only lasted a few months (story told earlier) until a large crow-like demon was violently expelled from my body, appearing physically as a crow I found dead in the barn. That was apparently "alcoholism", now I have some reference to it at least.