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I love that I figure out everything then almost fuck up the whole thing because a misconception.

And I even got the donkey's jaw right but because it had that form...
I started to feel that I am descending back dimensionwise. I tried to pull the energy out the jawbone but it felt different from the "self". So I went ahead and broke it. A giant energy of "self" appeared. Grabbed me and brought me back to the dimension I reached. I went ahead and walked out of my body and "united" with it. My body felt full of energy again. Then I went to bed and slept for like 20 mins. Even had a dream batman cleaned his outpost on earth. He cleaned the dirt off from it then said. I don't want to see this place get dirty ever again. So wonderwoman grabbed it and bought it up to the justice league space station. Some members even asked about it. Now batman will come up here all the time? No he will just not leave anymore. And like we all do with scriptures. I misinterpreted this dream I thought I have to let my body get reabsorbed into the earth and I should just "unite" with my self in "heaven". Now that I have no fear of death and no earthly desires. I knew this is a choice that I have to make. The buddhas even turned around from me. I didn't understand why at first. Then after having the shittiest Nihilist thoughts. I realized I always liked the stories of immortals who wander earth. This finally triggered the new level of the full circle. Now my "self" the white spike is coming through into my body.
>stolen
>"nectar of the gods"

We are full of energies which acts as a standby until our true self can manifest... But as a "test" we can do stupid shit and EVEN GET MORE CORRUPTED until we realize this. Now my body can act as a proper avatar for my"self". Also yes as the new energy comes in I have to let it go as easily as it can. I even manifested a blister on my eyelid and healed it within an hour. Those things usually take days. It's just important I let the gong flow into me as easily as it can. Because as of the other energies go out I start to feel weak. It's such a shame. It's not like I am not my body and my mind. I AM SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT. This is where Samson went wrong with the hair. It was part of his self and didn't retake it. He let the self get "attached" to his now cut hair. Also yeah the jawbone was just a jawbone. Samson beat up the phillies because he was strong. A weapon is as strong as the arm that wields it.
Also I had to realize it's not that I have to manifest my self. Everything. Not just people. Every atom needs to manifest it's "self". The journey is merely beginning huh