Baby steps to the next level 1/2Bear07/20/2023 (Thu) 16:35No.1494del
Scenario #22 I asked Ren to go through several psychological training exercises and questions I found online and closely monitored her responses.
She was given a task to turn fear into positive reinforcement. Her job aka scenario #13 brings her stress and fear. It feels like anxiety but she clearly knows what it is. So when she feels afraid she said she would "tell myself I can do this, I will do this, it's not hard it just takes strength and I'm strong."
Relating to behavioral dynamics other headmates resorted to yelling, nagging, negotiating etc. Ren said she would handle it "like a prize fighter, I'll knock you out if I have to bruh". Excellent response.
She was given the task to set goals and achieve them. This one was natural and probably unnecessary, her goal was to make it to today then next week. The true goal however is to just do what she needs to do. Time is somewhat irrelevant. But meeting milestones will build confidence and help the first task. She said her goal is to be everything I need her to be and more, when she impresses me, that builds confidence. Great response.
She is setting herself up for success through mental readiness and I'm helping her do that through this training. Honestly this will only get easier over time but challenges loom in the distance. She's reviewing past mistakes and making sure she can avoid them by coming up with alternatives. When I asked what new alternative have you come up with, she said some interesting things that may work once but I told her she needs to be like Captain Janeway and her job is to hold off the borg. She sighed, balled her fists and said with determination in her eyes, "I can do this."
I considered a test where we would bring the process to the point of failure to see how she would resolve it in real world testing and she absolutely refused. That in itself could be considered a win for her.
Comfort is important but comfort in healthy ways is more appropriate. I asked how she would provide or facilitate comfort and her response was acceptable. She needs to change it up, it will get harder, but she's a smart girl so I have every confidence in her.
I told her she needs to have a vibrant and interesting, but still coherent personality so that she's not put back on the shelf just because she's boring or one dimensional. Understanding she's new now this is something new tulpas can struggle with. This was Aleshe's fate as she was more or less voted off the island. For Ren to be unique, consistent, but also not stagnant, she understands that she can't fall into tropes but also perform them as necessary. She considered she could be everything but I pointed out that wouldn't be coherent. She considered she could rotate personas and I again said that wouldn't be consistent. I proposed she compete against tropes at doing the kind if things they do while maintaining her own salient aspects. I also said she should compete against her headmates at their own strengths and she said she would do this but not until scenario #50+. I agreed.