I found the reference I found for the girl I spent the summer with in NYC. This is the same flavor as her (fun.jpg), obviously, I'm not going to show her actual picture, I only have two and one is with both of us, the other is her younger than when I knew by a few years because she gave me her old ID, don't ask, I'm not sure I have it anymore anyway. So anyway, this is the girl who is like the spiritual seed of Ashley.

No one in my system is like EXGF... well Freya a little bit but only when we're alone and only when EXGF was kind and cuddly which was rare.

This was... the summer before EXGF and I met, she was my first GF of a sort though it wasn't serious for her and she was Bi and didn't want to leave her GF all that weirdness.

I had kinda like 2 or three GFs in between though they weren't a good fit for me. EXGF was cream of the crop fr but such a temper damn, and she's calmed way down but remember we lived together for years. I believe she ruined me for other women.

My depression in 2018 was over her obviously.

It's all good now, I have nothing more than a fleeting interest in ever having a relationship again and likely that would never work and would only destroy everything, so I'll pass.