>>869232
Nothing in particular. Through some social media stalking, I found that the girl from last year was attending a such and such event. I intended to walk past and accidentally bump into her or something, largely because I am desperate to see her. I felt pretty silly about it once I was there and just walked off. I'm glad I didn't text her. I am a bit worried at times I'll have some gay breakdown to her over the phone.
I had a brief chat with a weeb girl on the train (she is front of me right now) but I can't be fucked pushing it anywhere. My problem isn't tfw no gf but more a lack of purpose. I am still all cut up about her though. I keep checking her instagram for the pictures of her art. It fucking pains me to think about her. Even the way she carried books, clutched against her chest with her arms crossed, was so sweet. I wish I had a wife and some worthwhile work to do like how men had in the past. Six months have gone by for this year and I haven't even really tried to get a gf. I need to make a big effort soon and hope that the feelings go away. The problem of a lack of purpose will still remain of course but at least it will be more manageable.