drunk off a fair bit right now, wine, gin & tonic, and st.germains; i ate an ice cream in the shower because i felt like it, it was really fun, i recommend it
on a side note, i've actually been trying to stave off the drinking recently, i like it & all, but my PTSD makes me a shitty person when i've gotten 15+ shots in me, and i start to sleepwalk, so the roommate is really concerned
when i'm really drunk i just turn in to such a particular person, its one thing when i drink a normal amount, i'm a chill & fun guy; but its another when i'm running away from it all, i just become an angry, terrified, paranoid monster
i wanna quit on that, i don't need to be evil now, i don't need to kill people anymore, no man is putting a gun in my hand & telling me to kill all in sight
i'm in a different place now, and every day more, it becomes a different time, its just not required
anyways, i skimped out on the treadmill today, feel bad about it, my excuse is that i was tired when i woke up; i'll do in in the morning / my afternoon
my sleep schedule is so fucked up, private security really shits you out on that front, great money though, really, i got more than enough to spare after the shit i done every day & night
>>46879
yeah, unless they're tamed, they're scared of people
i've interacted with tamed deer though, they act just like farm animals
>>46888
i'm doing great where i live right now, nightmares are at an alltime low, i recently had an "interesting" dream too, i'll talk about it later
if i were to kill myself, you'd see it on the news; don't worry about it, man, seriously
if i ever do die, it'll be by something inane, like swallowing a wasp & dying by it stinging my lungs or getting annihilated in a carcrash via a semitruck
i just like to give the threads a bit of time to build up, i don't wanna spam it with me being some insane drunk idiot
i plan to do another outing in the forest trail, but farther than i gone before, it'll be in a bit though, so don't hold your breath
>>46889