>>1747
I noticed this. I realized my faith field was from christianity I mean it was "programmed" to it. I had to realize laws are an "essence" and if you can make that essence as yours you can use it. My first successful TK manifested a bright yellow field around the object I moved. Shame it drained too much energy from my being. First I didn't realize that I am in the Jesuit mindwave. I had to experience the Shaivist and Buddhist mindwave before I could realize that "law fields" are programmed by "Higher beings/authorities" and we merely use it as we get acknowledged by that law and connect to it via faith.
There is one thing that bothered me on this jesuit mindwave. First it's the constant lust for females while being disgusted by the flesh (this is why I had emerging astral waifus left and right) and the next part as you start to reach the "top" of the mindwave you have messiatic urges constantly. I had to tell a voice in my head constantly that I WILL NOT GO TO SPREAD MY FAITH BEFORE I COMPLETE IT. I WILL NOT END UP LIKE JESUS. Then the zeal that this mindwave gives went into powering the will to cultivate further. When I started to switch to the Shaivist mindwave I went crazy. The zeal of the both mindwaves started to clash constantly. Now I can reliably connect to the Buddhist mindwave. No longer the Shaivist tho. I did a ritual to solve a problem and that was not in accordance with the Shaivist mindwave so that is kinda gone. (The aspect of Shiva that was sitting besides me all the time told me I surpassed him and then turned into a white light and went away. I can bother him if I want but no more automatic secret yogi instincts.) The Buddhist mindwave is available but I can channel it a little less. The gods watch over me tho. It's just I am on a real unfamiliar territory now.

So the monolith turned out to be an energy collector and as it got charged it opened a bright colored portal and now little red people are opening up my now completed rainbow layered body to an empty pitch black abyss layer that sucks in the energy further. It's every particle of my body and makes old wounds hurt. (my left hand broke twice when I was little and the place where it healed hurts like a bitch.) This is a new body layer once again