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>Actual inexistence, though, is something even masters might not have any notion of. It's something that normally you shouldn't even be able to imagine, by virtue of you existing
That is the thing. This is just a stage of "existence". The ALL is cyclic it goes into cycles but the thing is there are multiple cycles that "govern" us. I had to realize after purifying and purifying and purifying energy that it becomes so small that it looks like nothing but because you gradually went to the "smaller and denser" type of energy you can detect it. So was that true nothing? well no it was just a thing closer to nothing. Now if you can connect to the source of nothing which can be done with the help of gods which is worse than dealing with devils because that energy can literally obliterate your existence if you are not cautious. (that is what it means to return to "God" btw. absolutely great feeling but am not gonna end my journey with a cosmic suicide). So to withstand this energy you have to gradually strengthen every "structure" of your being then make sure the energy you are getting "circulates".
The problem is that we think nothing is actually perfect stillness. Actually it's so fast it looks like actual stillness from the outside.
>We come from nothing we return to nothing
Now here's the thing. If we master our circulation we can make sure that we "send" our energies into absolute nothing/oblivion but with the way the cycles go we will get back nothing. We come in and out of existence all the time. We sleep for some reason we don't understand. So the most important part of nothing that it has the "potential" to become EVERYTHING aka the ALL. It's just the thing that you need to grasp that kind of "Nothing" that went into the "true nothing" and now it's coming back into existence but it didn't decide what it wants to be yet. Because existence needs to be "inspired". The future dream jobs we take in childhood is usually because something or someone inspired us to take that job.
So this is the thing. When we sleep we are "unaware" so we send in our "tired and unaware" energies and grasp it only when it tries to become "active and aware".
The problem is that you need a perfect control over the cycles and you need to see how your energies get into your "bodies" and aspects.