>>2031
>I saw myself as a skelleton while I was in bed
You are the bone of your sword ;^)
I'm not joking the proper weapon needs to connect to your "bones" to energize itself. I had this too. Not in the beginning but there was a time I was installing etheric organs into myself for a better energy circulation and one of them was a skeleton hand holding a dagger. The point was that the dagger is part of your body and one with your body. This way you have complete mastery over your weapon because you are it's "source". And if the sword is stronger than you then you need the "structure" to wield it.
>a fan with an umbrella handle
The fan appears in multiple mythologies and legends. It's perfect to fan away the bad energies of others and to send good energies or dharma towards them. While the umbrella is to protect you from other harmful things
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ashtamangala#Parasol
These things appeared to me too more or less. Good thing I googled it because I didn't know that was the endless knot when I first saw it above my head in the dark. These things contain/give access to so many secrets it's incredible.
>>2032
To me it seems that "two tusks" "technology" is used by multiple occultists. I encountered it several times but it wasn't as simple as 2 tusks it had multiple elements. I want to write down my findings about it sometime but it doesn't feel right. Using that thing might look like a "defensive weapon" but it feels like overall it's a limitation. It can be used way too many ways but none of them felt right so far. I need more insights about this before I am confident enough to write about it.