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>Tell him that you want spiritual development and not these worthless things.
I don't trust him, I don't think that I should ask him for anything.

>Then I realized my wish is spiritual development.
I'm worried about that, I wanted a gentle life with minimum suffering, dunno if there's such a thing if I want to ascend I also worry about that because I fear the unknown and to me the path seems full of unknowns. I need to learn about peaceful, bliss states, this constant anxiety is messed up.

>Also when you get spiritually strong you can "leave them behind". Like how you leave you school bully when you finish school.
I hope so.

>TL;DR Stay strong
Thanks, I was told that I'm being reckless in my dreams, possibly with my body too. I still haven't figured out a way to deal with the dizziness or maybe now its just some weakness due to me being unable to eat much at all. Maybe I'll try ginger and mantras after all.