Recently ive been practising a relaxing method which apparently allows me to enter levels of higher astral awareness levels for brief 4-6 seconds.
So what I noticed during these times is that I had a yellow spine energy being tapped by a white spinal tap leading into a tentacla sucking my energy until it eventually becomes black energy. I held this tentacle and even sqeeuzed it and immideatly felt energy rushin back into my body. However there was aslo this nasty quality to it as if just being there had mixed in some few percent of the nasty energy. The higher up the nastier the energy. It felt organic and a bit like a tentacle or and the sqeeuzing bit reminded me of a dirty mosquito filthying purer blood.
Alos when i pressed this tentacle i realized this was originally my actaully astral spine since i could feel lit as if i was sqeezing my spine. Meaning it shoutld go from base of spine to my brain but it diverted into some completely astral being of dubious cleansing practices. Basically id been cleansning my on energies this whole time but its for naught if this thing is connected upstream to my base spine instead of my physical body.
I thought this might be 'me' as in the entity that is my higher self perhaps. I am very different than boardowner in this respect so i do hope he takes this into account. I never cared about a higher self(perhaps subconsciously because while i have no problem with this so called higher self id already surpassed it very early on in terms of base mentality given the state of its energy ).ideally id want this cut off at the point where the yellow becomes black and then reinserted into my brain along the spine track becomes my spine.
I did meet what perhaps has been the ripper as well. She did i think slash something but i cant really tell if it was about this spinal thing i have.
