>>3865
>it's not so simple
Yeah especially because you have to get in touch with the positive and negative sides to reach the point where you can "no longer fall".
>Star deities often appear
For me they usually appear as the star itself.
>whips, knives and maces
Quite the nice representation how the light waves go, pierce, and crush the forces of evil.
>brain awakening" ritual
For me it was a mummy (he couldn't even speak all he had is body language at first) giving me etheric organs and in the end a weird mass of spherical tissue appeared with tentacles then got on my mind. It turned out that was the OG unified brain. The 1 that doesn't need to be in 2 hemispheres like the human brain (1 hemisphere gets "corrupted" the other can "fix it" and multitasking ofc). It stabilized the way I load ideas into my being. Less insane and more stable.
Had to consume them and realize into my being. This way I will develop naturally instead of using all those destructive energies to get ahead. So I grow like a tree which grows in harmony with it's environment instead of a raging wild fire which grows as fast as it can consume everything flammable.

>drink can't make you super intelligent
It's usually more than enough to awaken the dormant energies humans have "deep down". A little stimulation at the right place and right moment is usually all what we need.

>>3871
>how it seems I am utterly unmotivated to do anything unless directed
Yeah I noticed this about you when you posted the mindwave sigil. Made me unable to figure out just how much of a "minor coincidence" is that you posted something that is literally my field of expertise but totally a different thing that I work with.