>>3883
If we are talking about experiments and explosions I will share where I am with this information layer access.
There is the karma body. It is the body that we "create" by living. You can literally "read" everything a person did in his life with his desires and "judge" them. Usually it serves as a map what path they need to take to "go forward". Then there is the "original sin" body. That is literally the "mud" that makes us "real". The body soul connection resides there. That is what "sticks us" to this reality. Full kundalini awakening "burns it" and you can ascend and change forms leave reality whatever. This is what I worked for a while because it contains all truths of the human body.

Now this fucking information layer I am accessing feels like a fucking dormant volcano rock that slowly I need activate. Currently I am the Tower tarot card but instead of the tower it is a sleeping volcano which represents and I am supposed to figure out how to activate the mental faculties with the electric currents of my being. The Tower is called the tower but the most important aspect of that tarot is the lightning itself. What I need to do is charge this basalt rock body of my being in a way that it gets powered up instead of exploding.
Like fucking chakra like mini portals connect dimension with different parts of my body and some appears completely outside of my body my feets are connected like I am wearing a long skirt. I see the new symbols with my physical eye which means I am powering up an another eye that connects to the visual cortex.
Last night as I went to sleep and my subconscious parts started to activate the sleep cycle my body had a "Mini panic attack" because it doesn't know how to use the circuits yet.
I mean I know that the information layer is supposed to be harder than a rock while being so solid it can contain all the everchanging flow of information but srsly.

>>3880
>without ever getting any wiser
Btw I think this is because you are kinda diligent experimental cautious and doing proper spiritual practice.
I am still too impulsive so if I don't get wiser with every ounce of power I accidentally destroy something. This way I channel wisdom as a survivor mechanism.
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I am not proud of it. I just feel ashamed for typing this out. Damm

>>3884