>>3929
>wait.... so i was never even human to begin with?
Currently you are a human and you lived as a human through many lives. Might be hard to accept but most humans are the muttest alienest genetic freakest clumps of soul and meat tissue that walk around us. While you are not 10000% human you are human enough so the world accepts you grants you free will and most importantly the choice to reincarnate here freely. It's important because as BO said it here >>3928 many beings are on the "purge list" because they mostly do the most retarded evil.
>some form of sentience or awareness(?)
The human type yes.
>Were they trying to execute my death themselves or were they waiting on the forces that be on this planet to do it?
It was the latter. They are not allowed to kill you and cannot...
>my current self being used as a sacrifice (albeit that was years ago
while in theory they should be able to manipulate events that ends up killing you in reality there are sort of laws that doesn't let these "energetic influences" happen. What I gathered they sorta made you live some priestess like life and may have convinced you to ascend with a suicide ritual??? What I got that the participants misunderstood how ascension suicide rituals work and your sisters overestimated their ability? I am not good at getting specific events like this. But it is possible that it was a past life event and not a premonition. My "translate the symbolic meanings" ability is not triggering.
>people keep saying it might happen relatively soon but idk
they are impatient af and they give of the feeling NOW IT WILL SURELY WORK. Truth is it depends how much you want it. You got the human free will can't lose it without 100% consent. And by that I mean your full being needs to consent. Higher self lower self and all your feelings and desires. If some parts of you thinks something is off then it won't happen. It's a built in feature for the "real humans". Too many tricksters out there. Humans evolved to have a sense for these things even if they don't notice it.
>hold no regard or care for others
Do you care or hold regards toward rocks cicadas or letters scribbled on some throwaway paper? They are not human they don't have these built in "care" attachments. If I need to give you a human example it's like someone playing a videogame for years instead of visiting his relatives. For them the life or existence you are having is just a dumb videogame addiction.
>I typically prefer being on my own
Yeah for us introverts we need to get in touch with our original energies or we feel confused or "sick". Your original energy is not the same as most humans so you need to "get in touch with it". Hard to explain better. You are human but the current oversocialized extroverts are not exactly always human. The degenerate energies they can circulate to make a cesspool sometimes is unbearable.