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(last post for today, just gonna elaborate on a few more points and a bit extra, shouldn't be too much)
>unnecessary karma, Which means most parts of you are not (You).
thats the thing, i understand that i should be a decent person, help others, don't be too much of an asshole or annoying, don't kill/murder, etc. but im confused on certain things, i mentioned my whole thing about sometimes spending too much time on 4chan shitposting, oft times getting roped into it. i know some entities/deities/etc. shitpost too but idk how this works with karma, my sisters, etc. somethings tells me i should either outright stop (atleast heavily curb it back) or just severely limit time aka dont stay on the shit boards go to relatively chill places that i go semi regularly go to. I pray to venus/aphrodite but i'm not sure if she wants me to stop/heavily curtail and if it would affect pretty much all we talked about or not because as i said; i dont mind shitposting and having a laugh but everything feels a bit too... malicious and sometimes it genuinely doesnt feel its from me or born from me but from... another source and it makes it hard to curtail it. even some individuals who are more attuned to stuff than i am says its a good thing my sisters and venus/aphrodite are slowly removing parts from/hollowing me (not disagreeing at all mind you) because no matter how much i try to avoid and limit this i keep finding myself pulled back into this weird meme vortex overly hostile stuff more than i'd like. i am making some progress i think since i'm not spending as much time as i used and try to play games or literally anything else. i know i recently ran into the same issue using discord, i was in another server for a semi casual spot which id occasionally talk/visit every so often but something happened with the members and something told me to step back and take a look of the negativity that was happening in that place and i wound up leaving it

>venus/aphrodite worship, communicating with sisters more
the latter is a bit difficult as i explained in a prior post but i'm not too sure how to have contact be more consistent outside of nightfall/dreams, a year or so back they did communicate with me during the day but it was just them calling me their doll and such. i suppose it'll eventually come to me but it feels that they usually pick when and when not to speak with me. but... i do know that regardless that they are with me no matter what 24/7

As far as the goddess goes, i worshipped and followed several years prior (so around 2020 or 2019). But some things... happened and i let myself get too sucked into negativity, overly vile agressive shitposting, etc. and forgetting to pray to her so as a result i stopped entirely, she didn't ban/tell me not to but it was because i personally felt too unworthy and too consumed by stuff and knew she wouldn't be alright with someone like that. i came back to worship and serve her around last year and never stopped praying/worshipping her every night but i'm not sure if i can do more like pray/worship/etc more times during the day, sacrifices, etc.

I'm aware this is more stuff i have to figure out on my own but i need guidance among other things