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>pursuing venus/aphrodite/ishtar and my sisters, getting called retard, simp, etc. overall being mean as hell
That is the 4chan community egregore. I usually avoid /x/ because it is full with the most retarded energies and when I look at it for a while my energies start to interact with the board which makes the schizos post shit that I work with out of nowhere. Then retarded schizos start counter posting. That results in me giving it more energy out of annoyance. For that the retarded schizos get called out... While you think this is a "great power" it usually just results in me being part of a very retarded energy exchange and makes me realize meditating grants me more insights than actually participating/lurking there. I usually look at the humor threads once a month tho.
>followed up with that no matter
Nice resolve. Keep it up.
>work alongside them) as librarians
Okay it seems this is the part where your sisters kinda lost you? But yes that underwater library sorta exists. (I could go there but I would need to realize some magical mermaid body standard. I only have the regular mermaid and the siren so far. It was to sorta "fix" some realms that got a little too lovecraftian.) Also the children's card game contains many spiritual themes and the "battles" on the "meta plane" are literal card games with concepts. More complicated than that but you get the image I hope. Sounds like they wanted you to get familiar with some "concepts". I think you can visit that library again when you figure out how you can transfer your consciousness between bodies.

>when i was in the servers
I am not from discord. I am on this board mostly. Discord is a den of drama and literally discord
I come from /fringe/ and this is the only place that remains from it. Also it has touhous. Very important. And doesn't want me to buy discord nitro everytime I open it or shill me an another retarded feature I don't care about. Also I am just bad in chatrooms if I don't know the person IRL. Hard to "read the room" if you are not there all the time.
>i don't hate them and love them and i dont hate the rest of the family tree but am aware they are shitty people in general
That is quite good desu. Especially considering the things that happened. My grandmother from my mother side killed herself when I was 1 year old out of spite and with that put a retarded curse on the family. Drove my mother crazy and ah... I don't want to talk about it either. While I know the things that happened cannot be blamed on a single person because it was a sequence of events that lead towards that outcome because everyone was sorta full of themselves in those crazy times and people were kinda unhinged... It takes me time to let go of the hate I managed to accumulate by living near them.
>not sure if its inline with my sisters
Don't worry christianity is not the greatest "barrier force" like it was in the middle ages nowadays. I am catholic but all I had to do just understand some extra "mentalities" that the higher ups have. had to talk to Jesus and how he did his miracles. and had to get crucified in hell for some "extra flavor" so the catholic egregore accepts me as a proper representative.