>>3968 >pulled back into this weird meme vortex I too have an internet addiction don't worry. I too am on this place instead of being a sage in the mountains. You have to understand what parts of you like what in your addiction. How the memes the community the shitposting forms emotions and patterns within you. While my internet addiction is also decreasing I am still here and on the phone looking at other threads when I am bored as hell during the daytime and don't want to start up something spiritual because it ruins my mundane focus. Merging the spiritual and the mundane takes time. You can't be a half trance cosmic sage when you are supposed to talk about taxes with your accountant or remember what you were supposed to buy in the grocery store.
>removing parts from/hollowing me You have to start feeling what "grows" into those hollowed out regions and merge with that energy. If you are a retarded mundane shitposter you will have hard time "feeling it". As I said the subconscious memory tulpas. So your sister tries to talk to you and suddenly a wojack jumps in front of her and starts saying soy simp cuck niggerfaggotjew. And while they try to remove it from you gently you remake it again by reflex. So they try to remove it a little more aggressively and now suddenly you feel like you are being attacked harassed by them. Because in those states your subconscious is "pulling you in" for "orders" (which comes from your conscious awareness) instead of spamming maymay tulpas as a mental defense subconsciously.
I wonder just how much sense this made for you.
> i am making some progress i think Good. Keep it up. But slowly and throughly let it go while understanding why you don't need that addiction anymore. Otherwise when you get bored or nostalgic you will just jump back to do it over and over again so the mental patterns can spin and reinforce themselves. >try to play games or literally anything else Good. To let go of an addiction you have to figure out what will you do instead of it and create/overwrite the old patterns.
>something told me to step back and take a look of the negativity that was happening in that place and i wound up leaving it
