>The latter.
>They want you for something specific but they are not that persistent. They don't care if you don't bite the bait it seems???
hmmm... they/her will probably meet me again at some point

>That is how it starts. You start "image things" and first it looks kinda weak and fake then it will slowly "melt" into the "real thing". Takes practice to be able to "switch gears" easily. I too meditate at night
ah so this is normal, i'll try to improve at it. there were a few times (maybe a total of two or three times) where they did a thing where my mind was turned off and silent, i could hear them clearly. also the other me/her would manifest or rather i became(?) her because my mind voice changed completely and i remember being a bit yandere and under the weird battlelust
>"hehehe i love my sisters, kill kill kill, i love my sisters, love kill, consume love love"
>spoiler
I'm so sorry about that, that's insane...
>I too have an internet addiction don't worry. I too am on this place instead of being a sage in the mountains.
You have to understand what parts of you like what in your addiction. How the memes the community the shitposting forms emotions and patterns within you. While my internet addiction is also decreasing I am still here and on the phone looking at other threads when I am bored as hell during the daytime and don't want to start up something spiritual because it ruins my mundane focus. Merging the spiritual and the mundane takes time. You can't be a half trance cosmic sage when you are supposed to talk about taxes with your accountant or remember what you were supposed to buy in the grocery store
yeah, thats pretty fair when you put it that way

>You have to start feeling what "grows" into those hollowed out regions and merge with that energy. If you are a retarded mundane shitposter you will have hard time "feeling it".
well, i guess im not completely mundane because i can feel it and sense something is gone/missing but i dont know what if that makes sense. Like i know something negative has been removed but what that negative part specifically was is unknown (i guess while being negative, its also considered irrelevant to them so thats why i can't really pinpoint it when this happens)
As I said the subconscious memory tulpas. So your sister tries to talk to you and suddenly a wojack jumps in front of her and starts saying soy simp cuck niggerfaggotjew. And while they try to remove it from you gently you remake it again by reflex. So they try to remove it a little more aggressively and now suddenly you feel like you are being attacked harassed by them. Because in those states your subconscious is "pulling you in" for "orders" (which comes from your conscious awareness) instead of spamming maymay tulpas as a mental defense subconsciously.
i can understand what you're saying, yes. because i do recall when trying to converse with them in the night my mind will immediately go into shitpost mode, disrupting the flow. i can't remember if i did it or they did it but the thoughts just blanked out and my thoughts/personality reverts to how it is when im with my sisters (more quiet, sincere, etc.)