>>3997
>>>3968 (you)
I just remembered that episode from xxxHolic when they went to a girl who had an unhealthy forum addiction and it started to ruin her life and she asked help in that. That was the least magical but the best example how you can overcome addictions.

>As far as the goddess goes
Now about that... huh this will be a hard one to word.
Your "mundane worship" is so weak it's almost pointless.
>because i personally felt too unworthy and too consumed by stuff and knew she wouldn't be alright with someone like that
>Something like that yes.
A part of me figured i was going about it the wrong way but i wasn't actually sure

>That is good but you need to get into the "proper mindset".
So instead of praying to her try to "talk to her" extremely "sincerely". The first words that come to your mind while thinking about what you want to really say to her or talk to her about. You must not use your misconceptions as some foundation to stand on but instead of learn to be in the "air" or presence which is "front of her" or try to remember how it felt when she appeared and as you hold that feeling try to talk to her. You need to realize how you connect to her.
hmm... there were a few times where i did drop doing bog standard and prayer spoke to her normally (like i would a regular person) and it was easier that way now that i think about it...

> don't think you need to worship. The goddess and the Shinto princess and your sisters already acknowledged you. You need to get in touch with yourself and your power. As you said before your "mage powers" felt "inherent". You have to feel that. Remember how you learned to walk as a child? Remember how you first shat yourself? Then you learned to hold it in almost like it was an obvious reflex? How you learned to suck a tit or chew food?
This is how you learn inherent powers. Without forcing it but finally getting the "feel" how it needs to come out and let that "feel" guide how we need to move. Not easy I know. Especially because this is what I am doing atm. I can relate.