>pretty much can't remember or feel like im learning anything with the assignments and concepts in the course
Your focus is shifting and evolving.
The way we "learn" nowadays is quite unnatural. Humans did not learn this way the way we learn in the last 2-3 centuries. If you connect with older past lives or identities they will need to learn to be (current) human and reinvent how they "learn". I know what you mean. I too was in a "daze" because my energies were not the way they should. You have to reinvent the wheel. While it feels redundant a carriage from the bronze age and a Formula 1 car both have wheels but they are not the same wheels at all. They changed and evolved but they are still wheels. Thinking processes are this way too.
In my country we call the way academics teach the "Prussian way". The textbooks upon textbooks and dry teaching method that has a hard time to stick. I too had some abhorrently dry professors too so I made sure I went into every class (tho in some I felt asleep halfway) because I had to figure out how that person thinks so I can understand what are the important parts of the lesson and what is just filler. Such a rudimentary way we learn nowadays it's crazy. Especially if you have to learn from people that do nothing but smell their own farts for decades.
>literally using YT videos and other resources, essentially just disregarding almost all of the things in these books and classes
If you have enough source material and it helps on your field of study use it but if a professor wants to hear back the exact words he wrote into his expensive book then you are fucked. I had to keep friend circles in uni to know what is the "pet theory" of the prof you need to never forget or he insta fails you. Or which people are those that you need to pay attention to or avoid. But then again every university is different. Dunno how hard is yours.

>Honestly my mood has been a bit garbage as of late
>but that's more on me being silly
What do you mean by silly?
But yeah it really feels that way. And not the weird crashing all my world and beliefs upon my existence way some anons go through their awakening processes sometimes.
But it seems you are understanding what you need to do in a way or an another. Hard to put into words. It's like you and your sisters are finally on the same page.

>when sleeping again so its helping me connect with things again
>vid
That is literally a summoning circle with the holy trinity or 3 points of existence