>>4500
Wanted to write a long post about addictions and traumas in the last days but my energies went a little berserk and I was not in the state to talk coherently.
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>they took the form of a family member this time
As I said before you have to solve the emotional traumas your family caused to you. Our family is our origin source. We have to go "beyond that" and for that we have to fix the flow that comes from the past. Not easy I know. Even my own palmistry lines are fucked because of family traumas. And my energies are sorta berserk because I fixed some flows the traumas caused and my body managed to generate so much + energy i had to get used to it.
>form of a family member but... it was oddly comfortable this time around
You will have to make amends. Your family your memories with them... All part of your mind body energy complex. In the form of tulpas traumas and in other ways. They will need to be healed.

Now back to what I wanted to say
>>4482
>>feels like im just studying people
>You actually do that.

How to explain...
Alcoholics after quitting like the taste of dry or sour drinks. It is because that the old pattern that craves alcohol needs to be sated but slowly and in a non alcoholic way.
Going to these negative "drama" places on the internet is because you are sating your traumas. People who got sexually abused as a child either fear intimacy or become the biggest sex addicts. This way that trauma either never comes up because they avoid the stimuli that triggers the memory or constantly overwrite it with new and even more degrading experiences. They either never face that trauma or bury it with different but similar experiences. Our body has different "trauma memory" storages. You will have to find them and "solve them".