>>4815 >Your thought are too long and complex for me to untangle enough to reply to for the most part Yeah I know it's just I'm "tuning my mind". It's like a band making noises before the proper performance to see how things come out and how they sound then tune the instruments. I need to understand what I can write because I got used to that I cannot say most things to people. Then I realized I can change the mindwave and their mental capacity to an extent to explain multiple things to them if I want. The thing is ofc that I need to tune into them before that which takes time. I am sorta trying to figure out how to reach the perfect tuning by default because my expression flows naturally so I don't need to micromanage other's heads. Takes time to do pic related when I talk about things I could never talk to people about. You know there are "premade topics" within our heads while there are stuff we wanted to say but never thought really about then the stuff that we think we never thought of. But yeah we talk about too many things at once and hard to talk them out in replies sometimes.
>>4818 >wasnt sure if you saw them Yeah we got tangled up about past life stuff but I have seen it it's just I was not sure what to say. I understand your feelings and there is nothing wrong about you ranting them it's part of the process.
>well, my body doesn't really listen to my mind and vice versa Hmmm. Can you tell more about this. Some of them might come from traumas mental blocks or other weirdness. Tho I think you will be able to overcome them so if you don't feel like talking about it's not important.
>>4818 >>apart from that obviously conflicting with my path and sister It's not 100% that it will conflict... it is just as I said before. You have tendency to attract nutcases because subconsciously you want to get hurt. The important thing is truly letting go of a relationship"lust" or placing it into an another world. If you are saying this out of pure cope then there will be an enormous desire bottled up which might cause problems later. You will need to understand what do you desire from the "flesh" and what from the "beyond". It's important that it must be a resolve and not cope.
