>>5353
Funny thing this "thought talking" because I realized how my thoughts are moving my subtle body and how that clenches some muscles but only a "little".
Talking is a "Physical mechanism" so when I tried to "hear" and then "pronounce" some words especially some names of middle eastern entities it felt like I am trying to vomit out my entrails. Because if I want to remember what I channeled I have to reproduce it the physically "close" subtle body so it is an easy to access memory. Especially because my higher minds are too vast and I need more practice and mental bandwidth to quick retain stuff from it. It's weird when I "have" to think about something that "I know" but "never thought of before" so I can ground it and give an easy access for my subconscious to work with.

>>5354
>serves as an "anchor" of sorts
That is a good practice. Your intuition guides you well.
Then that "awkwardness" comes from you. You consider the "daytime" the "mundane time" and the "night" the magical one. Slowly you will understand that they are the same.

>i dont really like how transactional it is.
Same ;_;
>I know you mentioned it before but i finally noticed it
Sorry about that. But don't worry you walk the "path of love" quite well. Am ngl there are many pitfalls that most retards fall into because they misunderstand it and you did not show any symptom or leanings towards those "common pitfall retardations". It kinda fascinates me because it shows that you have the "real thing" by default. So yes for you it will be "alien" sometimes to see others doing the wrong way.

>apart from making me feel disgust
My Armor is Contempt My Shield is Disgust My Sword is Hatred In The Emperor’s Name Let None Survive
Funny quote but yes there is a "reflex" that literally closes off "disgusting psychic channels" by default. It's like how mud splatters front of you your eyes and mouth close automatically. Except if you are a mouthbreathing retard or something. It's like autoblocking