>This will be hard to explain but I will try. So you are still obsessed with making "shitty friends". Your energetic "preferences" make you "drawn" towards them. You don't notice it consciously but you are addicted to it. It's like someone having a proper family who always wanders out then hangs with hobos and drug addicts in a piss soaked alley then a family member needs to get him because he almost got stabbed in the process and didn't even notice it.

>I am not saying don't interact with mundanes it's just we have a way to "bring out the worst of others" without realizing. It's an energetic addiction. The faster you realize the better. Hard to notice it consciously. It usually happens when someone changes his lifestyle or something lifechanging happens.
i have no clue if this counts but a few people have... called me mommy a good amount of times and claim i give off gentle and almost motherly vibes. it does make me feel awkward but most of the time the people who say that to me are.... nicer (well they are pretty nice and amicable in general but still)

>This is a good indication that your "desires" are still the same deep down. It's important to know what we want on all level
it reminds me of the past instance a year or so ago where i recall my sisters and I eliminating people, someone tried to give me money for but i remember outright rejecting and saying
>"i don't do this for money nor do i care about such things, i just care about being with and enjoying myself with my sisters"
then the person backed off so i guess you're right about my desires more or less being the same. I never thought much of initially

>Oh I know that one. Hard to explain how it works. Have this oglaf comic
YES THATS WHAT IT WAS. also based Papa bones. Im assuming thats an imp..?

>Yeah that memory created a "core flaw" in your personality. It was necessary to go.
core flaw? i feel that i have an exact idea of it but i want to know what you mean (this is more for me confirming it myself than anything else)

>Yeah. Also I can feel how you have a little energy surging as you rushtype and make typos all over. It's part of the process don't worry. The themes we talk about are not something you can talk with everyone so you have to realize how to talk about something that is not part of the mainstream while being confined in this "mainstream language model". Takes time I know.