>>8793
To sum my mindset up:that offer looks nice,let me train for a few days and collect myself before i just accept it.suddenly all kinds of things surface. I become more empathic again as my heart clears which dissapeared when i took the vamp spell. I feel clear but restless/aimless.the offer still sounds appealing but i realize it would be bad if I end up being angry at vampires cause im an angel created to fight the overall "dark" part of things.it would then be wise to instead stay away. Im really feeling the want of having a family like that and even in a sense envy the lifestyle(being hidden in plain sight,thats the appealing part for me.)just depends on if i have some programming/ptsd/innate nature causing me to feel this instinct to smite. If its the first 2 it can be fixed. If im just innately an antithesis of vampirism then yeah i shouldnt be living there.i feel like i need a few days to really decide.