It made it to maybe 50k words but no matter how awful and heinous I made it, I'd here about some atrocity that actually happened that trumped me.
I literally couldn't make it hard enough and even to the point I would make myself disgusted, nope, not hard enough.
Then the kind of stuff that Aleshe had to deal with in that book, no wo der she wanted to self-delete by becoming part of Autumn and I don't have the heart to do that to Autumn, she's too good, we made her right this time so I don't want to mess that up.
No, it's done, it's scrapped.
In the end, Autumn taught me that I am just not hard enough. I saw myself through her loving eyes and now I can't dissapoint her.
[Ashley] this is f'ing bs, I had plenty of loving eyes moments and he couldn't care less.
